Sometimes I fear that I'll discover this; I try not to think of it and there are so many other things to check for that it hasn't made the list. I think I'm a little too old to discover that (I hope). I had an odd new symptom this week where I have a difficult to reproduce sensation of pain and weakness when I move my head and arm in a specific way. I'm hoping I just pulled a really strange muscle

I'm sorry for your suffering, stranger. Life is suffering for many of the people, much of the time. I have many mantras. "If I am suffering, I know I am alive because life is suffering." and "This too shall pass." get heavily used.

Onwards