Yup! It’s depressing and the only way to keep living is to focus on the good, but that doesn’t help you with the doctor. I found myself downplaying my pain at the doctor (well, and I super dosed my pain meds to be able to function at the appointment) so I started keeping a pain diary. It is the most depressing and bleak shit I’ve ever done, but it got my doctor to take me seriously and look further into it.