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thatsoundthough t1_it5cxoq wrote

Reply to comment by blackcatonacid in TIFU by eating shrooms and violently forcing my girlfriend to throw up by blackcatonacid

Mushroom strength can vary notably, depending on the strain and the growing situation. I've had ego death around 3 grams, but it lasted much longer at 4.5 g + MAOI (for the latter, I did vomit while passing in/out) for an hour. If your experience was legit just with natural mushrooms then I'd expect this batch was especially strong and whatever you took 6-7 g of was especially weak. Maybe?

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chonk_fox89 t1_it8brrk wrote

Not really familiar with shrooms, what's ego death?

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SandyBeaverTeeth t1_it8mkcx wrote

You lose your sense of self. The boundaries between "you" and "the world" fall away and you feel deep connection with everything around you. It's a main feature of psychedelics, and at any dose it is where the "one with the universe" feeling people describe comes from. "Ego death" happens at high enough doses where you *truly* lose the concept of "me" and cannot access your rational mind that knows you are an individual human and all that. You experience "oneness" in a very real and authentic way, and that can be extremely difficult and disturbing for some people depending on how it manifests for them in their trip. It can also be a profoundly beautiful experience that alters you for the better.

This is why setting up your trip is so important for success if you intend to take a larger dose, and your mental state/unresolved issues/whatever can surface in very extreme ways during this if you have not been caring for them or considering them when entering the trip. The OP's description of a trip that kept coming back to themes of suicide, and ultimately ended with a fixation on suicide while losing most knowledge of himself is exactly what I would expect here. It is a really good example of how someone who is dealing with depression should be extremely cautious about self-medicating with psychedelics. I don't know that OP or their GF is depressed, but it sure sounds like one or both of them might be. There's so much out there about LSD/shrooms/MDMA curing depression, but people don't realize those studies that have shown promising results are all done in a highly controlled manner guided by mental health professionals. Taking random shrooms with your buddies or partner or whatever is not the same thing.

Sorry, that turned into a rant...

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chonk_fox89 t1_ita0oyr wrote

No I appreciate it! I've been considering trying some shrooms to help depression and chronic pain so I'm gathering info and really appreciate learning fist hand from others!

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throwaway_nowgoaway t1_it5pcw0 wrote

Wow, maoi experience sounds kind of scary

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thatsoundthough t1_it5vcu6 wrote

It was no good, but also amazing. The Chemical Brothers' Dig Your Own Hole is forever burned into my memory...one of the few things I remember before everything went atomic. Was giggly when the album started, auditory hallucinations kicked in with "It Doesn't Matter," and I don't remember the album ending because I was slumped over the toilet, retching and passing out. The MAOI was definitely not needed.

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