The moving out thing.. its easier said than done. I agree with your last statement, I think about that all the time and how I don’t want to waste my youth on this relationship. For now I’m looking to set a boundary until I have my driver’s license and im getting it in a week. Idk :/ truly I should’ve left after the first outburst.

:/ you’re right.. I told myself that I can’t love him for who I want him to be.. and I’m sure if I hadn’t been his roommate I would’ve never been interested in someone like him. He actually lied to me about his age, took like 3 years off of it. I found out because I looked up his public records.. I was floored, I thought it was surely a mistake on the website. It wasn’t.

I’m 100% independent, I have a job and savings. I don’t live with him out of necessity, haven’t for a while. I’ve become attached to where I live because it’s less than ten minutes away from my job and it’s across the street from the college I want to attend. There’s many factors to this and why I can’t just pick up and leave. My entire family is in another country and I don’t have close friends outside of work.. the thought of doing that all by myself is heart wrenching :/ specially because that’s how I moved out in the first place.. packed up my stuff and left without telling anyone. It’s easier said than done. For now I just want to draw a line in the sand.