Sounds all very good, but you don't seem to be owing up to any of the shit you are doing to others. You still talk in a very self centered way.

Stop using women, OP. Just stop. Do the soul searching later.

You... Are using a woman you live with for sex, after you cheated on her, plan to keep on cheating on her, and told her nothing until you have a place to move to?

Sounds like this is a minor hiccup in a way bigger FU.