BoratKazak

BoratKazak t1_j6l5d9l wrote

Reply to comment by Alexis_J_M in LPT Request: I feel as though I have no motivation anymore and struggle waking up. by greywingspan

Oh that's definitely depression.

Or, imo, what OP describes is a totally normal response to this current unsustainable consumer-centric phase of human civilization.

I think the term depression merely attempts to pathologize a properly calibrated state of awareness, especially of that within middle or lower class society.

Deep down, you KNOW sooo much of what we do is a total fkn waste of time and life. But we do it anyways. Because the machine has too much momentum. Some people successfully deceive themselves into believing there's a point.

Others struggle to get out of bed.

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BoratKazak t1_j6kimho wrote

Reply to LPT Request: I feel as though I have no motivation anymore and struggle waking up. by greywingspan

My sympathies. I felt similar during my college days as a non-traditional student. Being in my later 20s it was harder to relate to the younger post-highschool crowd. So I was pretty lonely and no real support, aside from the opportunity to get a degree.

I wish I could tell you there's some exact formula to suddenly feel highly energized. I guess in my case an ADD diagnosis gave me access to Adderall, which helped slightly, but it came at a cost of many side effects and I think some permanent brain depletion.

Overall, I just basically forced myself to bleed and chew glass throughout the process. I went on autopilot, completing all of my assignments and putting effort into at least not falling my exams. The whole time experiencing varying levels of despair, but taking one day at a time, I eventually finished.

So aside from maybe some kind of therapy (if you have access to it), and maintaining your physical health with adequate exercise, sleep, and nutritional needs, that's probably all you can do. Just force yourself basically. Because failure will just make it hurt even more.

Funny thing is, it's like the whole process restarts, but on another level, once you're trying to maintain a career or hold down a full-time job. Ah, lol. There's no end to the gerbil wheel unless ya win the lottery or something. Have to find a way to see the humor in it all, I guess. Until one day the hungry abyss decides you've had enough.

Idk, sometimes I think consciousness might be overrated. 😂🤷

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