You may actually be right now that you mention it. I'll check on Monday if not, I might have found someone.

I'm hugging you digitally!

Thank you a thousand times over! I'll send you a personal message and update you on all of it. I'll do as you've recommended. I'll completely erase him and all of them and start new and fresh!

I'd appreciate some tips and inspiration. It would be amazing, thank you! I really can not express how much you reaching out, has meant to me today. I'll definitely keep in touch with you. And when you put it like that, 7 billion is more than enough to choose from!

I can't wait to write a new chapter with new friends and hopefully someday a new love too.

I won't sugar coat or lie - it's not easy right now even thinking about blocking him, and everyone is making me feel like I'm drowning in tar. It's heavy and hard to say goodbye to people that I've grown close to. I hate that I lied, I know what I have done is wrong, and I know I won't ever do it again. Because it's a lesson learned. It hurts. Every part of me wants to hold on to them all, but I know it'll only hurt me, set me back, and prevent me from healing.

Maybe they never were my friends to begin with, but it was one enjoyable illusion. My heart probably isn't ready for a relationship. Maybe I'm mentally not ready for one either. I could do as you said and join some groups, meet people who'll understand and help me build myself back up.

I'll invest myself more in my art and in my studies. Distract my mind and find coping mechanisms, healthy ones. Thank you. I am taking every word to heart. Honestly, journaling sounds like something I could really enjoy, so I might just try that out, too. For now, my first step of healing is blocking him and everyone that he calls his friends.

Thank you - I needed to hear that.
I've been slowly mustering the courage to block my old friends. I will do the same to him because you're so right. As a human being - I deserve so much better. I appreciate you and your comment more than I can possibly explain.

Thank you - I just wanted someone's opinion or a helping hand be it a stranger on the internet. Thank you.

I'm a college student with student loans, I'll need to settle for Reddit as an outlet unfortunately.