I giggled.

Addiction doesn't make you bad. Falling off the horse will happen. You just gotta remember that a slip up doesn't mean you can't get back to things. Just try your best not to, and definitely have someone dole them out. I was addicted to butabitol in my early 20's because my head would hurt, and I would forget, and take it again. Then I got rebound headaches... Eventually was taking 22 a day. Weaning too fast actually killed me, needed resuscitation and medication induced coma.

You are not bad. Addiction is a demon, you'll have to fight it every day, but you can win.