Them's the facts son.

I was in an ickthe last three months or so. Barely got out of bed, drank a lot. Put on weight, let myself go. Got off my ass to go hiking today. The being in nature is nice, the Ick fell away for a bit, I could think again, and I think I have the Will to do it again tomorrow

Tl:dr go outside it might help

She never deserved you, you always deserved better

“You can’t unbake a cake” me to my therapist when he tells me it’s not too late

I think we just lose the energy to be angry, which also means losing the energy to do much about becoming the future self you want to be

i must be dead inside because this did nothing for me. as a future self to my old self my future self to my present self will probably be just as bitter, resigned, self loathing, petty, and angry towards me as i am to my old self.