I mean I just cringe at that… attractiveness will only last a few years until I have to rely on steroids to keep that physique… cause muscles and bones will get brittle… and also face will get full of wrinkles unless I want to look like plastic ken which is scary… I understand people like aesthetics and stuff I have in the past.. but then you are like “what’s the point of this? My body will decompose and none of this will matter and why should I want people to praise and validate me only because of my aesthetics? Isn’t it sad and banal desire?”