Familiar_Finish1488

Familiar_Finish1488 OP t1_iyfb85w wrote

I mean I just cringe at that… attractiveness will only last a few years until I have to rely on steroids to keep that physique… cause muscles and bones will get brittle… and also face will get full of wrinkles unless I want to look like plastic ken which is scary… I understand people like aesthetics and stuff I have in the past.. but then you are like “what’s the point of this? My body will decompose and none of this will matter and why should I want people to praise and validate me only because of my aesthetics? Isn’t it sad and banal desire?”

1

Familiar_Finish1488 OP t1_iyfa3lz wrote

Ok great advice… but tbh it’s hard to compare a physical issue with an abstract mental issue. You can measure and know exactly how much time it will take for you to move that mountain stone by stone… cause you can physically see the problem and do calculations and estimate when it will be fixed for good. But this is a very abstract intangible issue and it’s full of uncertainty if I knew exactly how much time it takes for me to fix this I would motivate myself to do so… but i can’t just rely on hope cause hope is blind and fickle. I know many people rely on that and works for them but I’m not faithful person. Moving a mountain seems way easier and attainable than what I’m experiencing

2