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StevenIndieSparkle t1_j78gvwj wrote

After watching the Amy documentary, and finding out how empty she felt inside during this exact moment, just makes it such a heartbreaking thing to see really.

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6Seasons-And-A-Movie t1_j78j3s6 wrote

The perfect image to summarize "being alone in a crowded room"

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ChiggaOG t1_j79je91 wrote

The feeling of being along in a crowded room. I know it well while being at a party. I feel out of place.

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freshgrilled t1_j7c8ujw wrote

She should have some drinks to celebrate

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6Seasons-And-A-Movie t1_j7cgyyw wrote

I can't tell if that's a joke or not lol

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freshgrilled t1_j7cuwh6 wrote

I kid, I kid. I know enough of her background (and sad end) to definitely say that she should have stayed away from the booze.

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cup_1337 t1_j7qoshy wrote

Tasteless and low effort “joke”

Do better.

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beerasap t1_j78qjz7 wrote

Why did she feel empty at this moment? What is the name of the documentary?

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thesaltwatersolution t1_j7aq0x6 wrote

I think the quote to attribute is: “It’s boring without drugs.”

Spend enough time with addicts and you quickly realize that life as it is won’t do. It’s too boring. When your brain is addicted to the very highs you can’t tolerate the middle for very long.

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ToxicPolarBear t1_j7bbczg wrote

That and drugs literally change the physical chemistry of your brain such that the highs obtained without them are much lower. You stop being able to feel anything except the craving for more drugs.

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GOOD_BONE_N_CALCIUM t1_j7bez4r wrote

Can confirm. Used to do a bunch of acid and other dumb shit.

The onky things that really get me going nkw is going fast on motorcycles and diving waaayyy too deep into work.

Im slowly working my way back to normality.

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Padhome t1_j7c2gb5 wrote

It happens, it can take years but your brain eventually resets back to a certain norm. My friend's brother was a heroin addict for years, thought he would never be happy again until 3 years later when he got a donut over at Dunkin' and said it was the first normal happy feeling he'd had in years. Simple pleasures will be there, you just have to wait for them.

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dolo_ran6er t1_j7d7ap9 wrote

Can also confirm. Spent a lot of my 20s hooked on opiates. Nothing else did it for me. I was a functional user...but i got pretty deep and did some things i thought id never do. Almost died several times, family was broken...couldn't figure my shit out. I'm thankful those days are behind me, but oddly I don't know if I'd change a thing. It's given my current life a lot of perspective. Learned a lot of hard lessons...but its made me a more appreciative person in the long run. 2016 was my last bender. Now I'm engaged, I'm an uncle, and I have a solid career. There was a time I doubted I'd make it to 30....im glad I did.

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expensivebutbroke t1_j7ekz61 wrote

Hey man, I know you aren’t, but you sound a lot like my brother-in-law, and he’s a totally awesome dude. Here’s a stranger rooting for you ❤️

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WeAreReaganYouth t1_j7d6no6 wrote

Well said. Unless you've been there it's hard to really imagine how joyless life can been when you're stuck in that loop. I remember a time where I don't think I smiled or laughed for about a year.

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vonvoltage t1_j7ca6dy wrote

I didn't start to feel really normal until about a month without alcohol and two months before I felt like my endorphins and gaba receptors among all the other things in my brain were getting used to it.

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360walkaway t1_j7bqfxi wrote

I've only done weed at the most (maybe only a dozen times total ever) and I'm like this. Something major happens and I'm like "ok whatever." Wtf is wrong with my head

I ask an honest question and get downvoted, what is wrong with people

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Shadowleg t1_j7bqy20 wrote

thats probably more to do with internet usage than weed. Its been 15 years since this clip

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360walkaway t1_j7br6vl wrote

What do you mean

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Onkel_B t1_j7buzr6 wrote

How do you define "something major"? Is it a positive or negative event? Does it effect you directly, or is it globally bad shit?

One of my cats died a few months ago and i was wrecked. I can watch /r/combatfootage all day and not give a fuck about actual people dying.

There is nothing wrong with you. Desenzitaition is a thing.

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minimorning t1_j7bxgbf wrote

Weed comes in handy as a de stress tool for me I actually don’t use it often enough

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JRsFancy t1_j7bt69r wrote

Nothing is wrong. Sounds like you just grew up some. I never do drugs, but cannot for the life of me why anyone gets anything out of awards shows on television. Emmy's, Tony's, Grammy's, Oscar's....just a glorified circle jerk which I'm not a part of.

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Scagh t1_j7acwoh wrote

At the state of drug addiction she was at this period, the only thing she could think of was her next dose.

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JusticeUmmmmm t1_j7a7lcw wrote

Depression probably

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zyygh t1_j7aojj9 wrote

I don't have depression (not that I know of, at least) but I do have some pretty depressed episodes sometimes.

In those moments I try to cheer myself up by looking at all the good things I have, and at the things I love. On a particularly bad day, it all just does nothing to me. As if I wouldn't feel a single thing if it all disappeared right then and there.

So yeah, I can very clearly imagine depression making a person feel empty during such a moment where they know they're supposed to feel happy.

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concatenated_string t1_j7b3kur wrote

There has been nothing so life-altering and perception-bending to me than going through severe anhedonia when psychotically depressed.

I could finally (and truly) understand why so many severely depressed people take their own life.

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The_Lonely_lurker t1_j7bm3zc wrote

How did you get through the anhedonia?

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concatenated_string t1_j7btoqq wrote

SSRI’s, cognitive behavioral therapy, learning how to do mindfulness meditation and a lot of time and working on my mental health. Took about ~2 years to recover. I will be in therapy for the rest of my life. I still struggle sometimes but I have the tools and support I need to reorient and recover when I start falling.

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The_Lonely_lurker t1_j7bvt6q wrote

Interesting to see SSRIs on the list. I know someone struggling with this and they saw it get worse when their SSRIs were increased. Glad to hear you're in a much better spot

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concatenated_string t1_j7bx9ja wrote

I was on SSRI’s to get through the major episode, about 1.5 years to stabilize and then I went off them in order to feel “normal” again.

Oddly enough, SSRI’s would make me rage the fuck out every now and again. Never in my life have I experienced rage the way that I did on SSRI’s.

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The_Lonely_lurker t1_j7byoj1 wrote

Interesting. The person I know has been on SSRIs for years and years (unmonitored as they stopped seeing psychiatrist but the prescription just kept getting renewed without checking in). They just recently had a major episode so they upped it but the anhedonia they have been feeling for years is getting worse. The good thing is therapy/psychiatrist is now a weekly thing. So hopefully as with you the SSRIs can move them through this episode but they can be adjusted downward in time to help with the lack of emotions

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Saroan7 t1_j7ahe5p wrote

Probably huge withdrawal depression. Couldn't cope without drugs. She has some fantastic works but couldn't understand the larger picture.

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SpeshellED t1_j7br5ao wrote

Wishing she was as good as all time greatest Grammy winner Beyonce ! /s NOT.

I can not name one thing Beyonce has done. Love Amy and Dolores . Wish they were still here.

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MrStickySpaz t1_j78qkxy wrote

Wait what is this about? What doc? How did she feel empty? Why?

This shot is so cinematic and you saying this makes me very intrigued to know more.

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StevenIndieSparkle t1_j7a894i wrote

I'm talking about Asif Kapadia's 2015 documentary Amy.

Amy Winehouse's story is long and honestly pretty tragic, but essentially it was during one of the numerous periods she was forced to go to rehab and stop taking drugs that she won this award. Awarded to her by her literal childhood idol, she would go on to say to a friend just offstage, "This is all so boring without drugs".

Really, I see this moment as the point of no return for Amy. In this moment she had it all - fame, respect, a path to become a legend - and it still wasn't half as good as when she was high.

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WeNeedToTalkAboutMe t1_j7akdic wrote

I mean, as soon as I heard "They try to make me go to rehab, I say no, no, no", I was about 90% sure her story wasn't going to end well.

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ericbyo t1_j7c1nso wrote

So the exact same story as millions of other addicts, but she can sing gud so she was worth a movie.

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skwudgeball t1_j7c4hxp wrote

Are you saying other addicts deserve movies? Failing to see any sort of point on this stupid fucking comment lmao

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Alaidia t1_j7cng9e wrote

How is that the “exact same” as millions of others? This is the case of a .01%er beginning to actually realize her potential and reaching the heights of an industry. There aren’t “millions of other addicts” who have reached her levels of fame, fortune, and most importantly, recognition. She got a documentary bc hers was a household name and as such her story could raise awareness of an issue affecting millions. Those affected millions’ issues and lives are not any less important than Amy’s, but they are far more obscure and thus less interesting to most of the world. There has to be something interesting about the person for people to watch a documentary about them.

So I guess a correct response to you would be, yes she could sing gud so she was indeed worth a movie. Ugh I can’t believe I spent time to respond to this asinine and ignorant comment, but I typed it out already in an overly caffeinated fugue.

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HardCounter t1_j792evh wrote

She looks like she's surprised and about to cry. Are you sure about her feeling empty?

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StevenIndieSparkle t1_j7a8dfz wrote

Moments later she would tell her close friend just offstage, "This is all so boring without drugs".

Maybe empty is not the perfect word, but I'd say it's pretty accurate given what we now know.

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Canvaverbalist t1_j7btbu2 wrote

Yeah it has probably more to do with dopamine immunity.

She felt it at that moment, and 2 seconds later it faded away because her brain is just so used to, not only it, but even bigger hits. The down would have been even worse by being reinforced by the fact that she was "supposed" to feel the high of fame/success, so you think about it not fulfilling you and it's just that even more depressing.

"Oh hey, this is nic-- and it's gone. Well that fucking sucks."

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Nemeris117 t1_j7cdyge wrote

Shes trying to act surprised in the clip. If you watch her face it just doesnt seem genuine. Could be the hindsight but she looks to me like shes opening a present that she didnt want/already knew about and is trying to appear "grateful"

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SirIanChesterton63 t1_j7a4jt4 wrote

As someone that suffers from severe depression myself, I can see it in her eyes. She does not want to be there. Very heartbreaking.

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kimgomes t1_j7a2pq8 wrote

her father was part of her downfall, asshole

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thelongernow t1_j7befna wrote

No idea why you’re being downvoted when it’s clear in the documentary her father is a complete piece of shit lol

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OathOfFeanor t1_j7bg9bn wrote

Did they reply to something about the father, which was later edited out of the parent comment?

At the moment it looks like they called someone an asshole for no apparent reason

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delicate-fn-flower t1_j7e09y7 wrote

I'd say her whole "support" system was her downfall. That poor girl had no one in her corner looking out for her, only themselves. She was lost, but no one she needed to care did.

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Chajos t1_j7abdvd wrote

She is waiting. For the feelings. This is it. This the moment you MUST feel good, right? If i don‘t even feel good now… why am i not feeling good? ….

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emihan t1_j7adid8 wrote

You nailed it. I have depression… it totally steals your joy from your life.

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Umamikuma t1_j7aw1cb wrote

It reminds me of this beautiful spoken word by Sabrina Benaim, and this quote that stuck with me : "it’s just not that much fun having fun when you don’t wanna have fun".

So many times I’ve felt this, like I should be enjoying myself but I just couldn’t

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emihan t1_j7cjfjz wrote

Reading that quote, was like a little brain massage. Thank you! Even with depression, it still feels hella good to be validated. In my personal experience, it’s the best way to try to help someone experiencing a deep depression.

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ToxicPolarBear t1_j7bbpqz wrote

That and a crippling addiction to drugs

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emihan t1_j7ckfrq wrote

Also, coming from experience on this one… when you have depression, kicking any substance is excruciatingly difficult. Finally… you have anything, that makes you FEEL SOMETHING! But now you have to stop, because it’s killing you and everyone is sick of your shit. Now you’re even more isolated, and depression is worse than ever. It’s certainly possible to stop it, I have… but I will never blame her. Just feels too personal.

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RawWrath t1_j7bdpr3 wrote

Damn i could never imagine that feeling that sucks😔

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emihan t1_j7ckzdz wrote

Thank you, it’s okay though. Like with any chronic condition, you learn to (or try to) adapt. With me, it comes and goes. I’m not sure about Amy’s, but my heart goes out to her. I hope she is resting in perfect peace. 💝

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DatAssPaPow t1_j78dehd wrote

She is arguably my favorite artist of all time. I am so sad that we will never get to hear any new music from her. 😔

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onairmastering t1_j78lmy3 wrote

Damn, no Pink Floyd, Black Sabbath, no Brahms, Stravinsky, Mahler, no Slayer, Bolt Thrower, no Sinatra, nat King Cole, no Camilo Sesto, Julio Iglesias, no Caetano Veloso, Ermeto Pascoal, no Osibisa, Marley, no Accadecca, no Dire straits... Amy Winehouse is your favorite of all time.

Gotta take that with a pill, I shall. A cyanide one, at that.

EDIT: Pill taken. Goodbye, cruel world.

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JaesopPop t1_j78phyn wrote

That’s a real meat and potatoes list there

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big_hungry_joe t1_j79x6r9 wrote

no paul bufano??

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IronCarp t1_j7a3mc3 wrote

Dude probably doesn’t even know who Roy Donk is.

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big_hungry_joe t1_j7a44mo wrote

i might be getting cranky because i burned my lips on this gispacho soup

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IronCarp t1_j7a4840 wrote

You burned your lips on the gazpacho soup?

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big_hungry_joe t1_j7a64ql wrote

Have you ever eaten something you thought was cold but ended up being room temperature? It burns trust me

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TriRedux t1_j78uyeh wrote

Dude you're spouting names but you haven't got to the point in appreciating music where you realise that it's all so different and complex that people can find something good that you don't like.

You need to appreciate both music and people's interests more.

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notarealpunk t1_j78mpa2 wrote

Really bold of you to criticize someone else's taste when your list begins with the most basic bitch bands imaginable

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tehpatriarch t1_j78o8km wrote

What are you talking about, Pink Floyd was so groundbreaking and not overrated at all

I want to tell you a story About a little man If I can A gnome named Grimble Crumble And little gnomes stay in their homes Eating, sleeping, drinking their wine

Life changing. …. /s

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IronCarp t1_j7a3ko1 wrote

Dude who the fuck are you to tell someone who their favorite musician is. Get bent loser.

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Prester__John t1_j7993l4 wrote

Save that comment and come back to it in a few months. This exercise, hopefully, will make you realize how much of an ass you just made yourself sound. Doing this on reddit is obviously not a big deal but people like you in real life are a giant pain in the ass.

No one is impressed by your list. No one is saying to them “oh wow, that person truly have great taste”. Well, no one beside yourself. Let people enjoy what they enjoy without trying to force them to enjoy what you enjoy because you think it’s more worthy of enjoyment.

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BathroomParty t1_j79gwmt wrote

"you don't like the music that I LIKED when I was growing up, which means you have bad taste!"

I dunno man, I grew up in the 90's and I definitely question the musical taste of my younger self. And there are plenty of artists whom I can appreciate their significance, but I would never just sit down and listen to. Bob Marley is one. Led Zeppelin is another. Jimi Hendrix can go one way or the other.

Times change, technology changes, tastes change, and that doesn't mean anyone is wrong because they don't like the same things you do.

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PolarWater t1_j7bpxma wrote

I think the dumbest part is that they saw "favourite artist" and assumed that meant the person didn't appreciate any of the other artists they liked.

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jashuo t1_j79m4x0 wrote

Such a bold take. Look how the people love you!

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stonabus t1_j79ywvl wrote

Bolt Thrower? 🤣 you gotta be kidding me. Out of all the death metal bands? Bolt Thrower. Oh honey, no.

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Mispunt t1_j7ajy3c wrote

To quote CupcakaValkyrie above "This isn't the fucking flex you think it is"

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ShitPostGuy t1_j79keap wrote

You have the music taste of a 60 year old suburban man.

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Theshutupguy t1_j7abhrn wrote

You can just… not worry about what other people like?

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CausticCarnival t1_j79ampl wrote

dude, have your own fucking opinion, they are allowed theirs separately.

also listing bands/artists that are ridiculously popular isn't interesting either, form your opinions on your own and dont follow the crowd so much,

pretty much stop being a loser

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Fruitboots t1_j79ake8 wrote

Helpful reminder: musical tastes are subjective and that's okay.

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PM_ME_YOUR_MESMER t1_j7abphx wrote

For real. You're actually gatekeeping music right now.

I'm assuming you actually have an appreciation for music and aren't just able to make an obscure and meaningless list. In that case you'll know that musical bands aren't like sports teams; music hits different people in different ways and it can be for any number of reasons from the sound of the song to the meaning of the lyrics.

Goodbye normal world, cruel person.

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myleftone t1_j79k9y8 wrote

You, um, left out Babs.

In case you don’t see the point, it’s that this thread could literally go on for years mentioning each artist you forgot, proving you’re not the taste maker you think you are.

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Villeto t1_j7aulnu wrote

>Sinatra, Camilo Sesto, Julio Iglesias.

It’s ok grandma, go to bed.

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geslyn t1_j7ab6vd wrote

You sound insufferable as fuck. Your music tastes don’t make you better than anyone else. Go get therapy and recognize that you’re narcissistic as fuck. Willing to bet your narcissism drives away literally everyone. Go get help, asshole.

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npri0r t1_j78nrte wrote

I’ve never heard of like 90% of them. Have heard of amy winehouse tho

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zGnRz t1_j79jgq9 wrote

This brain dead moron still hasn’t found out people have different tastes in music

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cheersforthevenom t1_j7b7o6a wrote

I thought this might be a premium bait post, but the post history seems legit. What the fuck

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PolarWater t1_j7bpnd3 wrote

First of all, they said "favourite ARTIST," not "only artist I like," which means it doesn't rule out the others you named from being elsewhere on the list. Man.

It's sad that you know all these great musicians but you're still unable to grasp this simple concept: no need to be such a snob to others who appreciate different musicians.

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jzdpd t1_j7aqgbo wrote

eat a crap cake on your cake day loser

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Sennheisenberg t1_j7c0kid wrote

Sinatra's barely a fucking musician dude. He was more an entertainer or showman.

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TheAwesomeOzelot t1_j7dln51 wrote

Who are those people? I've never heard of them and I listen to a lot of music

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Rombledore t1_j7b8u8d wrote

no king crimson? im gonna take a cynaide pill for how awful that list is.

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Peelboy t1_j78diwd wrote

I do not generally like that genre of music, but she was pretty awesome.

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LightninHooker t1_j7asa53 wrote

I remember her last concert in Madrid. One of her last concert in her life if I recall

She was extremely fucked up. She was on the news and everyone was making fun of her and I could only remember saying to myself "she is gonna die in no time that poor thing" It was really osbcene making her perform in that state.

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Pachyderm_Powertrip t1_j79brg6 wrote

"Got so sick of crying, so just lately
When I catch myself, I do a 180"

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rgl98 t1_j7a9kof wrote

She was besotted by the idea that Tony Bennett had said her name, not because she won the award. Bennett was a huge influence for her so a huge moment. Ended up creating an incredible duet in 2011 - Body and Soul - well worth a listen.

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wivsta t1_j7a732o wrote

True artist. And (very sadly) a member of the 27 Club.

You’d imagine Kurt, Jimi, Jean-Michael, or Janis or Jim reacting exactly the same way.

Tragic and terrible loss to the world. May her music and legacy reign on.

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chainmailbill t1_j7bbfmy wrote

Makes me wonder what the list of famous musicians who died at 26 or 28 looks like.

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Vector-storm t1_j7aokt5 wrote

The Grammy, golden globes and academy awards are all awards shows given out by people and judges who are not pre-qualified in film and TV. It's a buddy club that gives good stickers for being the best next buddy club contestant. Dark history #71

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JRsFancy t1_j7bsn2n wrote

Scared she'd lose and obviously terrified if she won.

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freshgrilled t1_j7ehx3e wrote

So that would be, "Too soon?". Probably not the first time. Definitely not not the last...

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-ansr t1_j7faqar wrote

Was she performing mid announcement? Or whats going on?

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flipper_babies t1_j7h8sj7 wrote

Wish she'd been able to get the help she needed.

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d3adbor3d2 t1_j7lcfgr wrote

if anyone in the history of music deserved a grammy, she is definitely one of them

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McBlemmen t1_j7vle69 wrote

I dont understand, she was already walking up to the mic before they announced she won?

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ShambolicPaul t1_j7aiqif wrote

She looks so lonely and lost. Praying her father might give her a day off maybe.

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earic23 t1_j7c46pe wrote

She was so good live, it’s insane. Such a bummer, but drugs rarely has a good ending. I don’t think anyone was surprised in her case unfortunately

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Ken-Wing-Jitsu t1_j7cnvcf wrote

Shoulda give to rehab right after.

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jacknifeJake t1_j7cvo7u wrote

She was so overrated, im sorry but her music sucked.

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PaulD244 t1_j78oyzj wrote

Legends never die.

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Calismax t1_j7aqbr2 wrote

nah she had plenty of grammies before 2008, looks like she had maybe 3 grammies before going on stage in this gif

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FabianVG t1_j7a16hh wrote

She should've went to rehab, but she said no no no.

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DangersVengeance t1_j7aeuin wrote

Love the fact the fans are downvoting you for being honest. If she wasn’t such a drunk and heavy drug user she would still be here. But no let’s put the dead junkie on a pedestal. And I say that as somebody who knew her as a child.

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hexiron t1_j7b8i1n wrote

You use a lot of victim shaming phrasing regarding the extremes of addiction - I have 100% certainty you’d not fair better than she did.

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Elike09 t1_j7b5zum wrote

As someone that was prescribed their first percocet at age 9 and didn't figure out how to manage life without pills until 15 years later; its not as simple as just saying "no." Its a genuinely soul devoring battle and I blame no one that loses it. If you want someone to blame try the people making literal mind altering drugs that can completely destroy even the greatest person.

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Unlikely-Distance-41 t1_j7a759c wrote

Didn’t she cut the testicles off a live rat why professing her love for her boyfriend?

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Supersymm3try t1_j7b0y2b wrote

That’s just how we English people propose.

Americans all get down on one knee, English remove rodent testes 🤷‍♀️

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Streacher t1_j7b1ps2 wrote

People idolising a druggy, shame on you haha

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drager85 t1_j7c1x7u wrote

Oh look a person with zero empathy, How pathetic.

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Streacher t1_j7co4b1 wrote

Where is your empathy for the other homeless drug addicts? Nowhere, just because she blurted out a few records you think this person is special. She is not.

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artemisunderwear t1_j79am61 wrote

I love Lady Gaga!!!

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14X8000m t1_j79mti7 wrote

What does that have to do with this post?

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