Following up on the above comment, you’ve tried a variety of meds, but what kind of therapists have you used? Cognitive behavioral? Trauma? Social? Talk based?

I’ve skipped around a bunch of different kinds of therapy, and agree with you that it’s hard to find a match (and then one that takes your insurance, ha!). You can swap out meds with a regular primary care physician, but the treatment you’re actually getting might not be right. I’ve ghosted more than one therapist that just wanted to talk about my issues with my mother, and not about why I was unable to get out of bed for weeks at a time.