Ok great advice… but tbh it’s hard to compare a physical issue with an abstract mental issue. You can measure and know exactly how much time it will take for you to move that mountain stone by stone… cause you can physically see the problem and do calculations and estimate when it will be fixed for good. But this is a very abstract intangible issue and it’s full of uncertainty if I knew exactly how much time it takes for me to fix this I would motivate myself to do so… but i can’t just rely on hope cause hope is blind and fickle. I know many people rely on that and works for them but I’m not faithful person. Moving a mountain seems way easier and attainable than what I’m experiencing