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Silmarillien OP t1_iycstjz wrote

Reply to comment by Steff_Heavenheart11 in Do you ever feel nostalgia for the time you used to read certain books? by Silmarillien

Yeah that's exactly the same for me! But instead of summer, it was Christmas holidays. It was a period we could be lost in imaginary worlds without the cares of adult life distracting us.

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Steff_Heavenheart11 t1_iyd5dhf wrote

Fair enough. I mean I still technically am a child, but i feel so disconnected from my younger self that I view "childhood" as something that I've gone through in the past and which is already over. I feel like that's probably not the healthiest thing, but it's weird calling this moment right now and me from like 4 years ago part of the same stage of my life. It's so confusing being dissociated from yourself to the point that it feels like a completely different person.

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Silmarillien OP t1_iyd5vxj wrote

I suppose it's because of how much we change during the formative years of adolescence and young adulthood. When I think of myself years ago, it does feel like I was a different person. That's one of the beautiful things about readings books from older periods of our lives. They're like a reconciling bridge between two versions of ourselves.

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Steff_Heavenheart11 t1_iyd7wzi wrote

Yeah, i guess that makes sense. And it can certainly be really cathartic to indulge in little things i used to enjoy as a kid, like McDonald's happy meals. But I feel like the closer a memory gets to present so i remember it vividly, but there's also still a big disconnect just gives me this uncanny valley feeling that makes me wanna throw up. Like, I can't quite remember anything specific about McDonald's happy meals, so i just take whatever i presently feel trying it and try to associate with childhood, but because with clearer memories there's already a connection and you know in unconsciously detailed accuracy how it's supposed to feel and then it doesn't.. idk, it's just really unnerving. I guess it's like.when a book starts and ends with the same line, but with a completely different context.

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Silmarillien OP t1_iyd9p1y wrote

Maybe it's about not remembering the thing but the feeling you had back then. I'm not sure if I've been through this.

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