Aww thank you for all of that. I really appreciate all you said.

I have already started really doing some deep dives on a project I've been wanting to work on, and have felt really accomplished, so I'm going to ride that high and keep it going. Today marks the start of my vacation, so I am hoping more will develop from here

Ah, I see you know the city's motto.

But, yes. I am hoping for a weekend trip down to the bay to see some friends, but money. Hopefully I will be able to get somewhere, but I am trying not to count on it so I don't disappoint myself. I am definitely going to be doing morning walks, though, thats for sure.

I think I may be in that crisis mode. I feel like "this is it", and I feel like that added pressure is making me even more crisis averting, which means more laziness. I could also be self-fulfilling this by making it into such a huge, do-or-die thing. I hate my mind

I downloaded a few of those habit-tracker apps, but it requires developing a habit of using them to be effective lol I know that I want to develop these habits and skills, but I just seem to continuously fall short in enacting the plan

I mean, thats exactly what I am asking for help in achieving. I am wanting to make this time mean something and be enjoyable instead of doing nothing like I normally do

It truly is. And I cannot seem to stop despite knowing its the main issue. It's maddening

The getting started it definitely the hardest part. Especially for the projects, since not only to I lack the motivation to start, but then I even doubt the quality or merit of the project in the first place and dishearten myself from starting.

Scheduling seems like it will be the biggest tool I can use, and I hadn't thought of the alarms, so thats really helpful. Thank you