Many people. Their parents, their friends etc. In some cases, people perform for people they have have yet to know, people they aspire to be aquatinted with.

The “fake it til you make it” sentiment comes to mind. Many will construct an exterior image of the person they’d like to be and gradually apply more personalised touches to that image until it feels truly real to them.

I think a lot of people have issue with this. They persue a job that will ordained by a parent, they find a wife based on the wishes of their parent or the recommendations of someone else, they have a child and fashion their house as convention would dictate.

Something like the fountainhead led me to question the nature of originality and what , of the many things we take pride in and label as uniquely “us”, merely comes from the mind and governance of someone else

I’m the exact same. If you’re going to treat life like a performance is might as well be a genuine one

Thank god for all the intentionally dumb women for allowing our egos to dance

Precisely. I don’t think most “ ditzy girls” have intelligence in the academic sense (academics are far too egotistical) but I do think they’re incredibly socially intelligent

We see it constantly with reality shows. That kind of performative stupidity can be very useful at concealing someone’s true abilities

Can those cognitive abilities return? And what or moments were they return but only for a short period of time?

I’ll definitely check these out. Thank you

I listen and read

I actually own meditations. I’ll be reading it next (reading Ayn Rand at the moment so it’ll be a while before I move onto something else lol)

Is mindfulness the best way to come to a point of acceptance and less resistance?

Thanks

I’m finding it difficult to come to terms with this, but that’s part of my problem

What when shit does happen?

Basically this rising musician, Steve Lacy, has had some pretty bored or angry performances lately and is blaming it on disrespectful fans. The most interesting part of the drama is how many of his fans attended a performance but only knew the chorus. I wonder why that's a bad thing considering it's not the audience's job to know the songs; it's the performers

My inner cynic tells me this is the reality of life and fame

My thought on bands who hate their popular songs is always “well you made it and people liked it”. Honestly musicians seem to be the most self centred humans on this planet

I just feel he’s there to sing. He should do that.

Some people write for people who read a single chapter and stop

Thank you. I will try this

I haven't, I should try it. I hope I won't have to relegate myself to audibooks for the rest of my life

I read all that but even with reddit posts it feel like my mind is just struggling through it. Like I know the words and their meaning and my mind is half reading but it's not totally natural

It's the actual act of reading. I'm not sure if it's my subvocalisation that's the problem or what the actual source of the issues it. My inner voice is very quite most of the time

I only wish reading could be my balm but it's the complete opposite for me. I started reading very actively around 2019 (I was 19) and it wasn't a smooth process but I assumed it would cease to be an issue the more I read.

Then 2020 I had same issues but still assumed it wasn't major. similar issues here with my mind and the words just not flowing smoothly

2021 was when my tics started when I read and I started to become more active with mending this issue and stopped assuming it would no longer be an issue

I have adhd, ocd and anxiety and I presume these contribute to the problem

What illness? Sorry if it’s prying

I’ve realised what I have to do is drop it for a while. I’ve been trying for 3 years to make it feel natural and it just doesn’t happen

Thank you. I just want to pick up a book and enjoy it; it’s such a small ask really.

What do you think the source of this fluctuation in ability is for so many of us?