Submitted by blackcatonacid t3_y99rng in tifu
This happened last night , I just woke up and still traumatised and English isn't my first language so I'm sorry if its going to be bit hard to read.
I [M,26] lives in Colombia for the last 6 months (originally from the middle east) with my girlfriend [F,22] (local).
Me and my girlfriend love to eat shrooms together from time to time while working out , reading, travelling the nature and things like that.
Even though we are together for just 6 months we know each other so well , and know how to deal with tripping well , so we always know what to say to the other if the trip went wrong to fix it and make the experience pleasant and beneficial for us both.
But not last night... last night was something different.. we had 10 g we bought from someone new and we haven't tried those yet , we decided to eat 3 each and have calm evning watching movies or documentaries. (3 grams usually dont gives us that strong of an experience, we both already tried 6-7 gram on multiple occasions and dealt with that well)
So for the first few hours my girlfriend was tripping hardly and I barely felt anything and thought that this time I'm not going to feel anything as much time have passed and I was sure it was going to only get weaker from this point.
Our conversation turned really dark few times , talks about mental illness , suicides and things like that... I was still pretty sober so I managed to calm her and change the subject every time she talked about those things and suggesting that we should talk about things like that in the morning while we are sober... but I guess that this thoughts and information sneaked into my mind....
Now I'm still pretty traumatised to speak about all that happened that night so I'll cut to the main fuck up and might edit later and add some more details.
About 5-6 hours after we ate the shrooms (in that time I'm usually way after my trip) I find myself with 0 memory about who I got here , who is my girlfriend, where am I, why am I drugged, how the fuck I speak Spanish.. complete blackout.
I look at my hands and in my hands my girlfriend's sleeping pills package, and for some reason in my mind I have the thought that she took many pills to commit suicide, I look at her and I'm sure I can still see pills smashed over her lips , I can hear her mouth so dried from the huge amount of pills I'm sure she just shoved in her mouth.
I tried asking her how many pills she took but she was still drugged and just scared me more by answering , "I don't know" , "nothing or maybe just 1 or maybe 2"... such suspicious answers..
Know imagine this situation from my eyes for a moment, I know I'm in Colombia but I don't know how I got here or what city I'm in... I don't know who this girl or what am I doing here.. all I know she just tried to commit suicide and if I won't do something know I'm going to wake up tomorrow with a dead body, in strange country.
I'm thinking to myself that's it , you really done this time , you fucked up , you fucked up so bad , there isn't way back from this , this girls death is going to be on you , you will never see your family or daylight again , you fucked up , the life you know are over , you have to do something to fix it , if you're going to let this girl fall asleep she won't wake up.
So I'm starting to scream at her she has to throw up , she has to throw up all of that. She is telling she didn't took anything but I don't believe her , I see her eyes I can see she is drugged (of course not remembering that we even ate the shrooms so I'm sure it's because of the pills).
I'm screaming at her she has to throw this up , and she tells me she just need to sleep , she can't do this anymore (talking about that we are drugged but my mind in those moments thought this was suicidal talk...)
She is telling me she can't manage to throw up and that I should help her if that's important, so I stuck my hands in her throat trying to help her throw up.
She is throwing up all over my hand but I don't care , I don't want this person to die here, I keep yelling at her "why did you do this?" , "how did I get here?" , "why am I drugged" , "please don't die" , "please don't go to sleep"
Needles to say it was traumatising experience for both of us.. but we have talked since and she doesn't resent me for what happened... we both agreed we needed a break until the next trip and there are things in our life we need to change and improve first...
The apartment looks like war happened here last night and after what I did i volunteer to clean it all by myself, so that's what I'll be doing for today.
TL;DR Got bad trip from shrooms , didn't remember who is my girlfriend, thought she tried to commit suicide by pills so I violently shoved my hand down her throat while yelling at her.
AllanfromWales1 t1_it52j42 wrote
I don't know what you took, but normal shrooms would not do that to you. Timescales and effects don't add up. I'd avoid the guy who sold you those.